Still here
New answer day has come a little earlier than expected. I’ve managed to get in early to see the oncologist and so, hopefully, by tomorrow lunch time I’ll know what I’m facing. 11 hours to go…
Author Archives: Lauren Jayne Butler
Still waiting …
Today was meant to be answers day. After a sleepless night my parents and I rocked up at the Cancer Centre, prepared for bad news but hoping for good news. Instead of news we got … nothing. No further results from the bone marrow biopsy are available. So, we’re back to the waiting and I […]
Waiting
For the last three weeks I’ve been waiting. Waiting for the cytogenics testing to be complete. Waiting for a definite diagnosis. Waiting to know exactly what it is that I am facing. Tonight, I wonder if I would be better off waiting. I am nervous and scared about what tomorrow will bring. I feel nauseous […]
God is good
That is all. 😀
What I’m listening to
Music speaks a language all of its own and can minister to our souls in a much deeper way than words alone. I am certainly listening to more music than I have in a while. It encourages me and shifts the focus of my thoughts when the silence is too much. Here are some of […]
Fights in my head
There is a war going on in me. Not physically, emotionally. Today was the hardest day yet in the mind department. I made the mistake of looking further into my prognosis and the thought that I might be dead by Christmas hit me hard. Even writing it seems silly. Not real. So, for the rest […]
Peace in the midst of chaos
My world has been tipped upside down over the last week. I feel a bit like I am in the video effect you see in movies, where a person is standing still and everything is moving at warp-speed around them. I also feel a bit like I am safely inside home while a massive storm […]
A sad day
Stewart was born in our house just before I turned 18. He has been with me for all my uni study, moving out of home for the first time, moving into the first home I built, was with me during my Hodgkin’s treatment and through Mum’s brain surgery as well as moving back home with mum […]
2 Corinthians 1:9
Indeed, we felt that we had received the sentence of death. But that was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God who raises the dead. So very glad of this truth – I don’t want to waste this opportunity to rely on God more!
Telling my school
Here is a copy of the letter I read at staff Devotions this morning: Hi everyone! This is not a letter I ever though I’d have to write! But here goes … Back in 2004 I was diagnosed with Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. I was treated with high-dose chemotherapy and have been in complete remission since then. […]
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